Photography is an extension of my art which is inextricably interwoven into the very fabric of my being.
All my life I have been an artist.
Then why did I never recognize the artist in me when I looked in the mirror?
For many years I’ve lived my life thinking I was doing all the right things that my parents and school had taught me. I always strived to do my best, stay positive and be kind to my fellow man.
My dad used to say to me that to live a good life you need to get a trade or obtain qualifications in something. He’d say “I’m a jack of all trades, BUT master of none! My wish for you is that you get qualified first then you can do what you want. Having a trade behind you is the most important thing.” and then “put your head down and work hard and you’ll live a happy life.”
Now that I turned 60 and have done what I was told I finally realized that no one had ever given me permission to think for myself! I had been brought up in a culture that you do what you’re told and when told to jump you ask how high!
I had a small rebel streak but always thought twice before questioning or doing anything that would bring on the inevitable pain of a beating when it was found out that I had not followed instructions.
Even God would strike you down if you didn’t follow the rules! You are too academic and have the intelligence not to be wasted on art pursuits. Things like that were constantly being told to me so that I believed it!!
Being told consistently that being creative was not a career path, and that you can be an artist but you’ll never make a living out of it. Was what kept my desire and talent relegated to my spare time. Art and crafts and creative pursuits were only for your spare time.
So that’s what I did. I’ve spent my whole life following the status quo and serving other people and making them happy and not thinking about what makes me happy.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining just saying how I got to this point in my life without anything to show for it.
Although I always consider that I am a happy person, I never realized that I have this inherent ability to be happy at any given moment. This is how I choose to live my life.
More recently when my health started to get the better of me and I found that I couldn’t jump the fence anymore I had to go through the gate, it dawned on me that I wouldn’t be able to retire in comfort because I had made some mistakes along the way and had not fortified my bank balance with enough funds to see me through. I also noted that I couldn’t continue doing the work I had lived my life for because I physically couldn’t maintain the constant state of alertness required. Being a chef in a busy kitchen means that you work for the whole time you are on deck and at least once a day you go through your adrenalin peak during service. If you were lucky you’d serve two meals in one shift giving you two adrenalin peaks.
Where does this leave me?
I have managed to gain qualifications in photographic imaging and graphic design whilst working in the kitchens. This was very taxing on me and also the kitchen who put up with me for two years doing two things at once.
Now I am qualified to have a career change I have been developing my network and working out what my niche in photography is so that I can do the appropriate marketing to build a business.
So this is where I am at right now!!
I realize that the thing I have been missing out on trying to force myself to be a straight down the line regular photographer.
This is not working so now I have to understand what it is about me that makes me want to get out of bed in the mornings. Bang!!! it hit me in the head like a thunderbolt! a good friend of mine and I were having a chat one day and he asked why I wasn’t doing more art and craft because I was so good at it?
Now I am not earning that much from my photographic efforts so I figured that for all the effort I was putting in I would be a lot happier if I pursued things that would bring a song to my soul. If I was going to be half broke I might as well be doing something that makes me happy. So from now on, I am only doing what makes me happy and my reward will be that I eventually get pated for doing what I consider to be having fun.
This is my story.
This blog is about the things that take me to my happy place. If these are the things that you like.
Welcome and enjoy the ride.